I forgot part of the reason it was so hard for me to make friends at college: I don't drink.
I don't care if other people want to drink, and most people don't care if I don't want to drink, but it creates a barrier between me and everyone else, and it's so extremely frustrating. I hate large gatherings of people and I hate drunk people. How am I supposed to really fit in so that college isn't such a desperately lonely time of my life? Chances are it's easier than I'm making it out to be (in my present situation, at least), but when you feel awkward because of this propensity to drink early in the semester, when you don't know anyone and you feel the stranger, I'd say it's rather unpleasant and depressing. I'd like Danielle to be here right now. Or anyone. Just someone who's more than an acquaintance. I'd like to feel like it's okay not to socialize in massive groups all the time, and that it really is okay not to drink.
Also, class has been canceled for tomorrow too, so the general social atmosphere is likely to pervade even longer. All the while, I sit and hope very much that I can get into the groove of things and fit in. I very much like fitting in.
Hasta la byebye.
I don't care if other people want to drink, and most people don't care if I don't want to drink, but it creates a barrier between me and everyone else, and it's so extremely frustrating. I hate large gatherings of people and I hate drunk people. How am I supposed to really fit in so that college isn't such a desperately lonely time of my life? Chances are it's easier than I'm making it out to be (in my present situation, at least), but when you feel awkward because of this propensity to drink early in the semester, when you don't know anyone and you feel the stranger, I'd say it's rather unpleasant and depressing. I'd like Danielle to be here right now. Or anyone. Just someone who's more than an acquaintance. I'd like to feel like it's okay not to socialize in massive groups all the time, and that it really is okay not to drink.
Also, class has been canceled for tomorrow too, so the general social atmosphere is likely to pervade even longer. All the while, I sit and hope very much that I can get into the groove of things and fit in. I very much like fitting in.
Hasta la byebye.
1 Comments:
At 17 January, 2007 01:44,
Anonymous said…
It's cool for you to not drink. However, it's not chill to expect other people too simply conform to this lifestyle of yours. I'm sure it can be hard lacking a common pastime with many people, but as always, the key is finding your niche. You're not the only college student who doesn't drink and is not a lame-ass-bitch. Meeting people is terrifying for almost everyone; just do it, bro. Also, I'm happy you found a coop to live in.
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