The links don't work. Well, I should say the links don't exist. I kept saying to myself I'd post again when I could fix them, but I can't in the extremely near future, so I'm posting now.
My life has changed so much. So God damned much.
::Sigh:: But there's little to be done for it. There is little to cling to but nostalgia. I'm leaving for Austin on Saturday, along with many people I know. Eric and John are leaving for Lubbock and San Antonio (respectively) the same day. Travis is gone already.
I'll be back here in Katy on Sunday or Monday, giving my last hoo-rah all by myself. I think I might plan some sort of ceremony for which I will be the only attendee. Perhaps I will bury a knife and call it a hatchet, kiss the earth, and walk away, feeling strangely satisfied for no logical reason. I think I'd like to do that. Somehow it might make things easier for this young Turk.
I mean, it's not easy. My life as I know it is over, and I'm not as excited for this as so many others at Cinco Ranch High were. I wish I could stay for a little longer and get tired of Katy. I don't want to -miss- it. I don't want to miss my parents and sisters. I don't want to live life as an adult; not yet.
I think if I had another couple of months, I'd be ready. I think I'd start to get tired of waiting for this whole "college" thing to come about and become impatient. That's how I want to leave; without regret.
Sadly, what will be happening is the best thing that could possibly happen given the options laid out before me--which are, realistically, go to college or stay at home.
I think I'll love college. Love it to death. I don't think I'm going to want to leave.
I just wish I could have more time here with everyone else before I had to start on that. When college is through, I'll have work to look forward to and my youth to look back on. Jesus I wish I had more youth.
So that's what I am here about, writing in short and distended paragraphs. Writing as the clock nears to 4 AM and I start to worry about waking up tomorrow. Because tomorrow, gentlemen, is our last day together. It will begin when I wake up, and it will end when I sleep.
And the poor Ansteorrans don't even get mentioned. Sorry guys.
Hasta la bloody byebye.
My life has changed so much. So God damned much.
::Sigh:: But there's little to be done for it. There is little to cling to but nostalgia. I'm leaving for Austin on Saturday, along with many people I know. Eric and John are leaving for Lubbock and San Antonio (respectively) the same day. Travis is gone already.
I'll be back here in Katy on Sunday or Monday, giving my last hoo-rah all by myself. I think I might plan some sort of ceremony for which I will be the only attendee. Perhaps I will bury a knife and call it a hatchet, kiss the earth, and walk away, feeling strangely satisfied for no logical reason. I think I'd like to do that. Somehow it might make things easier for this young Turk.
I mean, it's not easy. My life as I know it is over, and I'm not as excited for this as so many others at Cinco Ranch High were. I wish I could stay for a little longer and get tired of Katy. I don't want to -miss- it. I don't want to miss my parents and sisters. I don't want to live life as an adult; not yet.
I think if I had another couple of months, I'd be ready. I think I'd start to get tired of waiting for this whole "college" thing to come about and become impatient. That's how I want to leave; without regret.
Sadly, what will be happening is the best thing that could possibly happen given the options laid out before me--which are, realistically, go to college or stay at home.
I think I'll love college. Love it to death. I don't think I'm going to want to leave.
I just wish I could have more time here with everyone else before I had to start on that. When college is through, I'll have work to look forward to and my youth to look back on. Jesus I wish I had more youth.
So that's what I am here about, writing in short and distended paragraphs. Writing as the clock nears to 4 AM and I start to worry about waking up tomorrow. Because tomorrow, gentlemen, is our last day together. It will begin when I wake up, and it will end when I sleep.
And the poor Ansteorrans don't even get mentioned. Sorry guys.
Hasta la bloody byebye.
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